Hell With These Xams !!!

Upps!!! Again it’s over, another semester, a series of boring classes
And it’s gonna b over another year at REC, my B.Tech 3rd year
In my brain there are a lot of tension & confusion now
Coz' something complicated is gonna happen as the exams are nearer

I am getting frustrated & upset enough about these end semester exams
Again my teachers completed the course & I could not notice when & how
Again I have 2 go through something that I just don’t understand
And I have 2 waste my time and my energy 4 simple letters like AI, DSP & CAO

Now getting up from my study-table, I have just come out
I am feeling exhausted & getting so much suffocated
Now I want some amusement some excitement added 2 my time
But the environment of my fun these days is not much excited

Five hours of studies, it seems like pain of ages
And these days tension is there everywhere in the air
These days I am getting dumbfounded in my room
As I try in vain to learn everything that I really don't care

Frankly telling I found it easier proposing my girl
Rather 2 write in these stupid & horrible exams
Coz’ there at least I knew what 2 express though I could not
But here I don't know anything but still I have 2 express

Within 4 white walled room declaring war against the black & white pages
Looking at the ever-new-looking contents of the academic syllabus
I really don't know why I think of attacking the emptiness with my pen
And why I decide to throw all these shit out my life, all my study apparatus

I am running out of time & lyk the colorless dry petals of a flower
My expectations of clearing the papers are also hanging in the air
But keeping a positive mind and thinking how god it will be, my exams
I'm going back to study with my notes after completing my evening prayer

No matter how good or bad will be my exams after this struggle with papers
I realized one thing that this boring time is really vital before exam
Whatever...I just want to say something about these preparations 4 exam
That to Hell with the System & Hell with these End Semester Exams...

DEAR FRIENDS...

U know what…??? During my school days I always liked exams more than the classes but now I realize how boring these exams are though they are really useful…
So the bottom line is we all should work hard 2 get the success in our life, hence we should not be waste our times complaining that studying is really boring……….coz’ they really mean a lot 2 our crack our goal in lyf…
I have written this poem 4 all my friends appearing 6th semester exam under BPUT & It is dedicated 2 all guys those think exam as a huge burden on them lyk me…
Thank U!!!

<<<<<<<<<<<<<<MRUNAL>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

Loneliness killing.....

It was mock at me; during this first touch of raindrops 2 ground
The whole globe was drenched in its shower except me
I just became a divorcee of my own fate
And it was a bad joke that destiny cracked at me

Being apart and lonely is like an old tree at some corner of the village
A silent witness of the entire storm that tried 2 erase its existence from the map concerned
But still I have to stand for my people who left me aloof
Coz' I still wish if they would ever think of my shadow after a long walk & getting tired

Still I didn't get why I remained alone, where I lost all my moments of joy
When was the beginning of my journey 2wards this loneliness
Where was the mistake that made me so typical & rude enough
So that someday scanning my feelings 2 get a smile will be proved foolishness

My loneliness has become a part of my life since long
That reminds me that I am not completed within myself, not yet
I realized that my loneliness was because of myself only
I have built walls instead of bridges in life, I was such an architect

We are born alone, we live alone, and we die alone
No one dies 4 another coz' every1 lives 4 his own
Though through our love and friendship we can create
The illusion for our moments that we are not alone, but it’s still an illusion

What I realized is that the most terrible poverty is loneliness,
And the feeling of being unloved, unwanted & underestimated
I am praying that my loneliness may help me into finding something to live for
So that I can live my days completely at least till it can be expected

When loneliness kills each smile that tries 2 wave my cheeks
It happens when loneliness becomes the murderer of each desire & 2 me it is happening
I feel all alone in the crowd & I feel dying at each moment though I am alive
Coz loneliness is disturbing me always.......& Loneliness Killing..........

It usually happens 2 me........The unusual things

Sometimes when I think of my lyf... I try 2 realize......
What such a big mistake I did if I did fell in luv.........
Definitely gravitation was not responsible 4 it...but even I am not........
I tried a lot 2 keep myself aloof 4m it but in vain... as usual...

I knew it's a difficult business, 2 luv & decided not 2 ever fell in
But to my great dismay I did fell in unknowingly... I knew that I'm gonna get a lot of pain
But I was completely helpless as I got a spark of luv during those days
I lost my heart I lost my mind, & tried 2 close my eyes & not 2 feel it but in vain... as usual..

I died on that beautiful spark & opted 2 burn throughout the life
Coz' that spark did lighten my world & drove me away 4m darkness those days
I still do enjoy burning coz it was my choice...it was my decision.....which I will never regret on
Since long I am trying 2 let my sorrow go down the drain... But in vain....as usual..

Now I am far away 4m the happiness...& getting too much closer 2 my prescheduled destruction
But now I am scared, I don't wanna die coz death it's gonna steal my lovely memories away 4m me
I am trying 2 live coz’ I wanna tell the world that i didn't do any mistake if I loved
So won't get punished i won't drop the bitter shower of emotional draining..but in vain...as usual..

My golden days were not much longer but were quite high density of memorable moments in it
I never cared for how much r the moments there in my lyf 2 luv & 2 live
Coz I tried 2 live my whole life within a single moment with that brightest spark of my luv
Still I tried 2 run after that brightness 2 snatch it 4m my fate...but in vain as usual

Now I lost again... again I lost... I lost my lyf...I lost my dreams.....
I am a complete bloody looser..... A looser in lyf...as at every relation I failed...
Neither could I be a good son of my parents...nor be a good brother 2 my sisters...
I tried a lot 2 b a gud friend a gud lover in my lyf ...but in vain... as usual...

Hence was my decision that it would b better if I won't look for any further relationship...
In fact it was very difficult 2 maintain every relation... and I am tired of my lyf... a looser lyf...
I still could not get that...why the hell all these unusual things usually happens 2 me... happens 2 me onlyI am afraid of myself & I feel suffocated within my own world..., my days r full of pain & it’s really very very unusual.....