Dearest December

Oh!!! youngest son of the year
Sweeter than ur youngest brother

U r my delectable December

U collect all resplendent recollections

& wrap them up with ribbon of exhilaration

To present me on every new year

U must be great enough to introduce

Such a momentous day, the 1st of january

Concede it, for ur cap I've another feather

This is the end of another gigantic year &

Here I am still lonesome at the end

All r gonna desert me like u, Oh!! december

This is me again & let me pretend that

I don't feel like there was something I missed

These r all I have & I want nothing more

They always prefer to say u goodbye

To welcome the new year with celebration

& u have never complained of this either

The same old life, same day-night

Same people around us & felings are the same

Same will be the pattern of the calender

More of them might be there this time

But expectations are same & so be the activities

Why they call it as a "new year"

Why r they anxious about 1st january

What's new there in a "New Year" indeed

Can't it be "Happy Next Year" rather

Anyway, here u go & this is all so clear

I will wait for ur return to join me

Though been unwelcomed since ever.

How many smile & oppertuinties it may bring

The coming year, that doesn't matter

U will still remain my dearest, O!! 31st December...

Love or Attraction ?

      These days I.....I was just thinking over something....something really confusing...

      Ok! Let me convey it 2 u guys.......So I’m gonna throw some light upon this…

      Well, there were days when two people were coming so much closer 2 each other.....of course a boy & a girl.......let me clarify what I really mean....else u guys may take me wrong........ok. 4get it...When they were coming closer, most of them were sure that it is luv...definitely...I mean hardly somebody was confused about it.

      But now-a-days......not only d time but the youth & their perception & views have got changed & so b their concepts. What is going on now is that they are still confused about their relations even after understanding each other thoroughly & this confusion has got the real twist in their relation; this might changes their entire life drastically. And I will say that such confusion must be there in this youth & adolescence where people change their partner frequently as if they r changing their T-Shirt. That's it...? Doesn’t it really matter to them...?? It not, why not.........???????

      So my matter of concern is what the confusion is..? It’s obvious & certain. The only question in their mind when two people start liking each other is, "Whether it is really love or just an Attraction?"

      The major diversity between luv and lure is that, “Luv” is pure and it stays with someone forever, but attraction is just for the time being. It doesn't mean that attraction is impure... but lure has got many forms which r the basis on which it can be decided that how it is. When the term “Attraction” is concerned, it is basically because of the reason for liking them, either physically or mentally or may be due to any personal choice or reason. Of course everybody has got their own taste & choice.

In luv no one can ever get over someone they luv and in attraction with the passage of time, people forget about it. It might not happen within just a day... though it takes some time, but finally this gets erased out of the picture & their minds as well. Luv is a pure feeling, where you fall in luv with someone, who is luv of your life and you want to spend your whole life with that one. U can do anything for their sake. Their happiness is the only thing that matter to you and they are the most important people to you on the face of this Globe. No matter how hard one tries, but can never get rid of these feelings in life and can’t forget anything about someone they luv. As they say.......every1 falls in luv...at least once...Moreover, as far as my knowledge is concerned it happens at most once. I think it happens only once in the whole life. Second time it's just a compromise...with Ur fate...with Ur feelings & with Ur life. So it’s up to the person who is in luv to decide whether it is luv or something else.

         Some people say that they won't ever fell in luv ...But frankly telling, it never happens. I mean either they r already in; but hiding it, or even they don't know that they r in luv. Luv…... the worthiest feeling of the creation….It has got the colors of rainbow, scent of flower & warmth of sun. It is gelid like ice & gives pleasant like spring. It has got the most precious feelings in it. So how can someone keep himself aloof from it?

        In attraction, people get over with the feeling as time moves on. And soon they are in luv with someone else. This is not luv, luv is something entirely different. Something really very mighty, really divine... & too mellifluous. Unlike any attraction, it is a feeling which does not reduce with time; rather increases as time move up. Both Luv & Wine; more they get old get sweeter. The story of luv is different and many have not understood it but yet fall for it.

Well I have got another crap 2 make this clear.

Attraction is just... what it is...Just an initial interest in two people which brings them together...

        Once this attraction occurs, both take the time to ascertain more about one another. If given a needed amount of time, this time reveals whether or not the mutual attraction will be platonic or a kinship that will grow into luv. When respect, patience, trust, agony, suffering, hope, and a deep caring for the one u like gets developed, a loving relationship may certainly develop out of that attraction. Once these elements and foundations are planted and sowed, both who are involved will naturally move in step together to the same rhythm & they will yield lots of luv & care. And definitely they are going to make an ideal couple. There is no mistrust.

        There are also many forms of luv, the luv of a friend, the luv of God, the luv for a family member and last but not the least... Luv for Luv....Luv takes time, patience and nurturing. Luv is sacred in God's sight. More over luv is Timeless, Priceless & in fact, Shameless......

        Though attraction is a positive feeling, when a barrier gets in the way, if the attraction melts, luv can't happen. But if the barrier feels more like something that the two can make better & like making their way to get rid of the hurdle, then that's when attraction has grown into luv.

      So if u like anybody & u think u r in luv please make sure that u r actually in luv...what people call “True luv”. Though I don’t believe such a term like “true luv” is there as there is no existence of “false luv”. Coz’ luv is true…. forever it is true. So Luv must not carry such an adjective. That’s really bullshit!!! U can conceive it when they are apart & away from u... if u still remember them, u still like them u still luv them, then Congrads. Yeh !!! U r in luv... But if u like any other then there comes two options. Yes, if u have forgotten the former one then the current one might be luv, & if not then then the former one is certainly... luv of ur life..... Even after this if u r thinking of the 3rd 1.........then 4get it.......Coz' it's not luv it's something else that I can't say...

       Anyway, after so many theories & so many concepts, do u really think it's that easy 2 guess & substantiate whether this is luv or attraction.......????????

       Well, I don't think so... If u too feels the same, then no need to think over such a concept. Don’t judge ur relation....Coz' if u will do that, u can never make one.

Vanity

Someone has enchanted upon me

Made me sit down… looking up

I was searching the existence of void in the heaven

I found an aspiration in me

To count the stars in the bright daylight

As I have lost the sense to observe them

When they do peep into the globe

From the dark apron string of the night

I clearly remember

When I was stretching my hands

To feel the humble touch of the daylight

From the window of my murky room

From the concealment of the open sky

The peace dove was inviting me

To his kingdom of silence & freedom

Waving its wing he me gave a hint

To break all the boundary & every chain

And set myself free from my fake vanity

With the dreams of another paradise

When I set off my journey to that unknown kingdom

Where there won't be torment

Unlike the torture of this betrayer world

Where there will be trust & faith

I felt a huge transmute in me

There was no bandage of blindness anymore

Around my eyes,

I could see myself clearly, what I was in fact

My senses became active again

But I was searching for the friendship of walking-stick

To drag my own soulless body

Which had got physically challenged by then?

Oyster Shell

It's like the ground so far away

Far under the deep sea

Interior of my heart...

There are bloods inside it

In-stead of salty water

Too much love, so many feelings

Some sulkiness, a little shyness

Some anger & some are tender...

Like the oyster-shell in ocean

& radiant pearl in oyster

Neither one can go deep into water

To bring the pearl or the oyster

Nor can snatch any feelings…

From somebody unwilling to give u

A place in her heart's soft corner

When tears spill out of eyes

It seems as if the tides broke out

The tale never ends by writing poems…

Nor does d sorrow meet an end

When someone says "Alas!”… 

It  never happens !!!

Dream Merchant..

 

Oh my dream merchant

Are u shadows of a sailing cloud in the blue of the sky?

Or u r the mirage of the thirst

So that I can never touch u

Knowingly I have chosen a perpetual journey

This doesn’t have any end

Where walking long I’ll b getting tired

There will the my thirst

I won't tell that I have ever loved

May there b enough heartache inside

You r d rose 4m paradise

U serves heavenly joy when I look u from a little far

It is not written in the fate of every river

That it will get an appointment to meet with ocean

Some of them die on the half way

Every garland doesn't get god's grace

As some get entombed

Then how can all d dreams u sold me

At cost of my feelings, come true...

Only U !!!

This starry night 4 u

4 u...these flowers & d spring

The rain is thirsty 4 ur arrival

Autumn leaves are coming down to touch u

4 u these feelings …

And 4 u my desires burning all d night

Come...drench me…make me 4get myself

Fill me with u..

Complete me!!!

Rearrange my scattered world

Pave me the path & show me new light

U only r mine

U r d only one whom I am telling my unspoken words

In such a bigger land u r only 1 made 4 me

Without u everything seems lonely everything seems dormant

U only can give new life to my broken dream

In this romantic evening in this starry night

U.....only......u r only mines........

I remember u only

You can make my history a memorable one

It wills b fulfilled with just a look of yours

My geography...My uncertain existence

Cry For The Soil

Oh! Black crest clouds...

Let ur chest break down

Let the rain kiss d feet of the mountain

Don’t b uncertain

Don’t b afraid of the toughness of rocks

Come & crave the message of love & peace on its surface

Let the thunder break d silence of sky

& change the equation of earth

Arriving after so long

Why r u there, staying away?

Why is this imposture & why this vexation

Did the earth have a dispute with u?

Then why is this sulkiness...

Did the river cursed u or did the spring

Oh rain cloud, give up ur sadness

Break ur chest down

Forgetting the uncertain interval

Let the rain fell

Let there b no rain shadow

Today, just cry d insipidness of the soil…

Bring cloud nine in heart of the earth

With the introduction of ur falling tears… 

    

Angel At My Door

I met her somewhere out there
An angel with charming blue eyes
She was resting near the pillar in front of my door
Oh, she is an angel of butterflies

I felt as if she has come down 4 me
She won't ever go away
Was it her for whose arrival
I was waiting 4 every night every day

Yeah, she has come.........
I’ll listen 2 her voice sing & her peace bells ring
Her angelic appearance is capable of salvation
& I feel myself so safe under her devoted wing

Softer than the tulip, her warm touch
Will murder every trace of fear
She's gonna stand beside me always
2 show me her untold love here

She has come 4 me 2 make me smile
Coz' I’m feeling a little blue
& of course, I can rely on her
As an Angel's love is always true

She will smile right back at me
When I’ll look in2 her eyes
Ah!!! I hav 2 find a special place 4 her
It must b deep inside my heart & should b larger in size

They say I am alone…
Though I'm not d same by myself at all
Whenever I need my Angel with me
All that I have to do is just a call

Funeral Of Innocence

During the early spring of my life

I used 2 b in a very blissful mood

I had a splendid ornament with me

That’s my innocence of childhood

But by the time I stepped ahead

2wards my tarnished adolescence

I lost that priceless property

My fickleness & innocence

I had 2 give up my restless mind

& I ran away 4m my own toy

Which was closer to my innocent mind

While I was a little boy

Gradually devil cracked its whip on me

With lust and dirty pleasure

Sin was about 2 touch my heart

My life became quite bitter

I started looking at life differently

With an experience I gained 4m my age

But I got it at the cost of something precious

As innocence vanished 4m my life's page

I wish, if any1 brings me back my innocent days

I will dedicate my entire youth 2 award him

Can innocence ever be found in me?

It mightn’t be possible anymore, yet 4 me it's my biggest dream

I Just Want..... Everything

I am not a bird
But I want 2 fly higher & higher
I don't have wings
But I dream of touching the clouds
I am not a king
But I want 2 rule over thousands of hearts
I don't have magical stick
But I dream of a heavenly kingdom
I am not a slave
But I want 2 serve needy people
I don't have a single penny
But I dream of helping poor fellows
I am not a flower
But I want 2 bring smile on some face
I don't have nectar on me
But I want 2 utter sweet words
I am not a candle
But I want 2 enlighten the whole world
I don't have much wax on me
But I want 2 burn throughout d whole night
I am not a tree
But I want 2 provide shadow 2 d passerby
I don't have branches full of fruits
But I want 2 feed a hungry
I am not a raindrop
But I want 2 subside the thirst of thirsty
I don't have a big cloud with me
But I want 2 drench d whole world with happiness
I am not selfish
But I just want everything
I want to share all that I have
Even though, I have got simply nothing.....

Oh!!! Dear, Tear…

Removing my glasses
When I went 2 some corner of my bed
It was a dark room filled with complete hush
My breathe was providing warmth to the chilled air
Taking a long breathe when I closed my eyes
I felt something is making me so much concerned
My head inclined down 2 rest on my hands
And at that silent corner I heard.....
I heard a pathetic shriek piercing through the quell of the night
While opening my eyes slightly
I found something glistening on my palm
In the pale moonlight rushing into my cottage
I felt as if it is complaining, why I am detaching it from myself…

It was telling me, "Oh, dear!"
Don’t u luv me anymore?
How could u forget me...... so soon?
I am the only witness of all ur distress & joy,
All those precious moments preserved in me
& all ur built & broken dreams........
I am the only friend of ur loneliness till now
How can u be so much selfish...?
I know u r dejected, u r alone & u badly need my company
Plz don't drain me out of ur eyes
I beg u, plz don't.....
It's not the time 4 me 2 go away..........
I promise, that it will come d day
When I’ll leave spontaneously
I’ll make ur eyes wet of happiness
U will get ur blithe days back in ur life some day

Meanwhile, I felt bad for my mistake
It is killing me inside.........I started murmuring
As I was about 2 betray my feelings, “O my dear drop of tear...!”
I can’t help it anymore….. Coz’ it’s hunting me….
But how can I get u back in my eyes now?
It replied, u just can't do that
But u can do something that will be enough
To make d dedication of this drop of me valuable & hence complete
I was anxious 2 know what that was in fact
Then just before my question, it answered me in its last word
"Please, keep smiling!!!"

Then with a little stroke of the wind
My half-opened window opened completely
& the moon peeped into my room
I began 2 wonder, if the moon is still enlightening the earth
In spite of d fact that it has got dark marks on it
Why can't I smile when there is sorrow
Then I kissed the last drop of my tears
& went 2 bed with one more promise
That I won't let my tears fell, I'll never ever do.............

Waiting For U...

How to live without u & what's life without you
My days are going prolix & my night too goes lonely
I am tired of walking alone as there is no fun anymore
The desire for your company has started burning

Though your hand got slipped out of mine somewhere
But I know our hearts r still bound by some sinewy bond
I am always there for you through thick and thin
And I will always be there with u exhilarating to win

Oh dear, if some day u feel alone while there is no one with u
Then don't ever worry, just turn around & look behind u
U can find me right there waiting 4 u only for you
Where u left me earlier in the race of time

I will wait for you with hope & aspiration in my heart
No matter how far you are or where you are
I won't forget you & keep u in my heart forever
Coz’ my feelings are still secluded and in search for your soul

I will be waiting for you to feel your pacific touch
To hear your Musial voice & to get your magical hug
No matter when or how soon you will come back
But I'm still here, still waiting for u to finally be mine

Oh dear, life without you has become very pathetic
Neither anyone can take your place in my life nor will I let anyone to
I miss u so much & I need u badly 2 manage my living
I want your company very much in order to get my life back

I believe that you will come back to me someday to make me intact
We will remove the barbwires of misunderstandings together
And will walk together again & loose ourselves completely in each other
Hence at I am waiting for you anxiously & will always be waiting… only for u